The girl I once knew is a miniature version of herself sitting at the pit of her own being.
Her screams echo in the vastness of this shell she used to call her body.
The mind she once knew is the distance away it would take to climb Mount Everest.
Only each day a record blizzard blares away making the slightest step impossible.
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The Space for Me
Today, our first anniversary spent alone.
The scent of you lingers on the cold side of my bed.
I can’t explain the duality of loving you and not wanting to hurt.
Knowing what is right and what’s wrong.
A lot of what I say I think gets lost in translation.
I wish there were a way for you to plug into my mind to understand the thoughts that lay beneath my eyes.
I feel like a mountain climber climbing to the top of a plateau in search of a peak that doesn’t exist.
But hopeful as I ever am,
I will pursue expeditions that seem so far impossible to find a space in this life where you and I exist in harmony.
Human.
I want to get lost in conversations with perfect strangers.
Talk until the moon is chased away by the sun.
Connect the stars like they were pictures.
Exchange similarities as if relating was a currency.
Theorize the meaning of life like we were philosophers in the year 600.
I want to make sense of it all and have it make no sense at all.
Life is a riddle that shouldn’t be solved.
I want our connectedness to be the only thing.
Emotions we share as humans.
Yearning to feel it all.
Love.
The strings that link us together.
Nerves in a nervous system. One body.
An endless web of souls interconnected.
The surge of energy running through our veins.
Elated, floating, bubbling with happiness.
I want to share the things that make us hurt.
make us laugh.
make us full.
Laugh until we cry,
Then cry until we hug.
Hold each other’s trauma in tender arms.
I want to live a life that’s a constant reminder of what it means to be a human.
Dark Thoughts
Surmised in the bleakness of abyss,
A dark thought was born.
Putting my hardened soul amiss,
My heart was entirely torn.
Knocking at my door it was You,
Waiting for me to open.
But if only I could really choose,
I was left lost, hoping.
People wonder why I hide,
In a warm bed days away.
But outside was riptide,
Waiting to be swept away.
Everything is only a reminder,
Of what real darkness is.
If only the world were kinder,
There may be true bliss.
The darkness at my door awaits,
To snicker it’s sick lies.
Fill me with a somber hate,
Breaking all love’s ties.
If only you saw the dreariness of life,
You too would run and hide.
But in this endless game of strife,
Your thoughts always decide.
New
I used to be deeply saddened by the things I could not control.
Routine is my enemy.
The old and reused feel like endless cycles of misery in my head.
They said find the fun, look for the beautiful.
Well that’s just it.
The beautiful is the new.
At least for me.
Something I’ve never done something I’ve never seen.
I need new everyday and every second.
I want to inhale the world and exhale the ideas.
I used to feel ashamed
For craving the newest of all experiences
Selfish
Childish
But I realized there was nothing wrong with yearning the unconventional
We desire what we desire to put out
I do not desire to put out the normal
The routine.
The everyday
I only desire to put what hasn’t been done.
What hasn’t been made.
And what hasn’t been experienced.
I am a creator
A creator that creates the New
Embracing Now
I think one of the hardest things for me to wrap my mind around is the idea that time has no existence; time is a man made concept. Just as Einstein’s theory of relativity states that everything is relative to the person, so in turn there is no equivalent for everyone. So I guess what I’m trying to say is that considering time is only relative to your person, then we should embrace every moment right now.
Hello !
So this is my very first blog post ever. I’d like to start out by introducing myself and giving a little insight as to what my future blog posts will include. My name is Kelsey Ketting, but I go by Kelsey Rose because Rose is my middle name. I am currently 20 years old going on 21 this November and I reside in Redondo Beach. I have a 3 year son named Elias Ray, but you can call him Eli. People call me a dreamer, but I like to think of myself of a pursuer. I initiate plans to make them a reality. I guess the technical term is an “entrepreneur.” The project I am currently working on I cannot talk about yet, however the second it is released I will be very excited to share it will all of you. Some of my favorite things are writing, traveling, going on adventures, and having fun. I love life and I love every person truly from the bottom of my heart. I think that every single soul on this planet is beautiful and magnificent. Continue reading
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