When you took your last breath,
The world was silent.
You took with you all the sound.
The laughs. The late night talks.
The “I Miss you’s.” The “I love you’s.”
The “I need friend right now’s.”

I need a friend right now…

I imagine you in pearly gates of heaven,
Dressed to your finest.
Handing out pieces of your soul like gifts.
Creating friendships to last eternity.
An endless love.
You always had an endless love.
So much to give…

I imagine you partying with the Gods.
Clubbing it up on Cloud 9.
You’re popping bottles with Zeus,
Making the heavens quake with the party that’s ensued.
Jesus Christ himself couldn’t turn down a shot from you.
You are the Life of the Party.
Always. Life. Of. The. Party….

Are those the memories you wanted to leave me with?

The long nights and hangovers?
Waking up to regrets and long texts?
Waking up with the crave to feed the illness?
Waking up from nights I’ll never remember?
Waking with feeling like I wish I never woke up at all?

Because that’s just it,
My Forsaken Friend.
Every party has to end,
And yours did…
Now you’re at a party you’ll never wake up from.
A party I’m still not invited to.
A party that blares on in the heavens up above,
Echoing bass into the core below.
Keeping me up at night.
Not from the noise,
But the silence inside me.
The sound you took with you.

I know we all wish the party would never end
The highs would never fade
We’d escape every worldly thing just for a moment
Bury the problems in mounds of cocaine
Prescription pills
Just one more shot to numb that last bit
That one last hurt
And maybe we’ll never wake up from it
And I’ll have found my invitation, to your party,
Next to You.